#wallpaperwednesday is back this week with #002 —>
To be honest, I almost abandoned this idea because it felt a little too cheerleader-y, which doesn’t really feel like me. But I showed a couple friends last night and they told me it didn’t feel that way to them, so I decided to stick with it (also because I was ready for bed and didn’t have a lot of time to make a new one. BUT that is the beauty of a weekly wallpaper - if you or I don’t love it this week, hey, get excited about next week. It feels redemptive).
So here’s how I landed on wallpaper 002 for this week… As I was brainstorming last week about what to letter for this week, I thought about what kind of things I want to see on my lock screen.
And I realized that at this moment in time, I need to be reminded that I am strong, I am beautiful, and I am courageous. And / or that I can be.
I may not be or feel strong all the time. Strength manifests in a variety of ways - physical strength, sure, but for me when I see this, I wanted to be reminded of mental and emotional and spiritual strength (physical would be great too, but if you remember from previous posts, I’m still working on the gym and discipline). My job and I have alternated in kicking each other’s butts over the past couple months, and I *think* (and hope and pray) that as a result, I’m developing mental and emotional strength. I’ve been feeling a bit restless lately. I have more thoughts on this and how that ties into spiritual growth, but I think I may save that for a future ww ;)
I don’t feel beautiful all the time. It’s kind of confusing how sometimes I look in the mirror and think “hey, I feel pretty today,” and other days I think “how can I look so different today from some of my better days???!?” They say beauty is fleeting. I believe it. I also know that at the end of my life, I’ll want people to remember my actions and attitudes as being beautiful, not necessarily my appearance. The dictionary defines beautiful a bunch of different ways, and the Bible describes it this way:
”Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” (1 Peter 3:3-4)
I hope that one day, more than one person can describe me this way.
Lastly - I need to be reminded that I am, or can be, courageous. Brave. I sometimes feel anxious about things (like big meetings where I need to lead/perform) and then realize in the moment that things are rarely as difficult as I hype them up to be. I've begun to learn over time that I can save the worrying, and if I focus on what I'm doing in the moment - show up and be present for whatever I'm nervous about - I'm ok. And I can handle things as they come my way. Some days I totally have a can-do, kick-ass attitude, and other days not so much. When I added this word to the wallpaper, I was thinking specifically about the moment of glancing at the time on my phone before one of my more challenging weekly meetings.
If you’ve read this far, thank you! I hope that when you glance down at your phone and see this wallpaper, you can pause for a second and feel encouraged.
See you next week!